Finally, it came to me that worshiping God is like coming out of a dark tunnel into a beautiful paradise. When I’m struggling to fight for the light while in that dark tunnel, I cry out for God’s presence, and ask Him to meet and save me. I plead to Him to pour His spirit over me. After all the crying out and pleading for His presence, I got discouraged so fast. It’s because I thought that after all those prayers asking for help and seeking for His protection, nothing happened. I turned my back on Him, thinking I could make it without His words and help, but I was wrong. Everything went bad and the dark tunnel where I used to be became more darker than it has been. Every day became more difficult and painful to endure, as every struggle came after the other, like how waves rush to the shore.
I became devastated! As if nothing could be of help to me. On a regular day of me battling these battles of life, finances, business and faith, a thought came to mind. A thought that made me remember the moments I cried my heart out to God and asked help, are the moments where the tunnel still have tiny rays of lights from tiny holes. I cried and seek for His forgiveness, realizing that a dark tunnel with tiny rays of light is better than the darker one I am in right now. I seek for His word, the truth of God’s word: John 4:24 24 “God is spirit, and those who worship him must worship in spirit and truth.” I contemplated on this and realized that if all I have is earnest desire but no truth in my prayers or vice versa, I can desire all I want but won’t be able to go anywhere, instead I would be staying in the same place I am, and loosing every inch of hope and faith. Faith in God needs spirit, earnest desire and truth altogether.
I started praying for the spirit to come upon me and bless me with the right desires and to enlighten my mind as well as open my heart for the truth of God’s words. All at God’s right time, prayers are answered. My faith made me endure every challenge life is to throw at me.