11th Letter

My “Today”

To that one person,

How was your weekend? Me? It was a hectic one. First thing, I spent money wherein I shouldn’t, because I’m not earning nowadays. Then I ditched an old friend on her special day – she got mad obviously; so she wanted me to cope up with what I did and told me she will fetch me from home and that we’ll eat breakfast at her place – which I again rejected because my best friend would be very jealous. Though I attempted to tell my best friend that I wanted to eat breakfast with another friend because this and that – unfortunately,she just ended up mad. Now I’m asking myself, what mess did I just put myself into?

If I’ll put expression on your face while reading this, you would definitely be rolling your eyes thinking, she’s an adult so how can her friends affect her decisions? Hahaha You got me! It’s not that they affect me but it’s a choice I chose, I usually do not like to make my friends feel bad and I do not want the competition they are having right now. I just do not have the guts yet, but to my best friend “you just have to learn to share a bit.” That would solve everything else.

That’s how hectic my weekend was. Oh gawd! but today’s a different story. From hectic it leveled up to being dreadful. Well, I don’t want to tell you stuff that would make you choke on your food but my day was hell like (pervert problems haha). Just a hint, a boyfriend of a friend did something so outrageous (did an exhibition with his thingy and sent it to me). Problems came right at me like raindrops one after the other. Whew! Well, I don’t want to put the burden of all of them on you. I’m happy with just this.Thank you again for being there. Like you always do.

-me-

Welcome back T.O.P.

It’s been quite sometime that I didn’t talk about T.O.P. Those times I wasn’t able to write about him, I was hurting. I was feeling his pain ( I might sound uncanny, but it’s for real) I was going through devastation as well when I heard all different sort of versions of stories of his scandals. I watched every interview clip and read every article that talks about him. It was not a pretty sight to see in the feed of your social networking sites; it was a sore in the eye. Still it didn’t make me hate him, besides he had always been an inspiration for me. His mistakes does not define him – I’ve been whispering this to myself. After all he’s just a human being. He falls and someone will pick him up and make him stand on his feet again.

That day has come, last July 6, 2019 Choi Seung Hyun screen name T.O.P. finished his military mandatory service. Instead of just meeting the V.I.P.’s (bigbang’s fandom name) outside the entranceof themuseum he served, T.O.P. met his fans somewhere not even themedia knows. There he greeted and shook the hands ofalmost all V.I.P.’s that are present. This meeting is very important for both of them, the idol andthe fans. They are just showing that both parties trust each other somuch that amidst all the issues their bond wasnever broken. I’m proudof you T.O.P.

In an emotional IG post dated July 7, 2019 T.O.P. stated how thankful he is for the unwavering love of his fans through all the years.

We know that you didn’t want to hurt us also, we truly understand. Our deepest gratitude also for coming back to us. We are so proud of you and we the V.I.P.’s love you always.We will wait for the day that the 5 of you will be together again.

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10th Letter

To that one person,

I knew from the start that you were not going to read any of my messages. I never had the expectation of it also. I’ve been sending you messages for exactly 1 year 11 months and 2 days today. I never missed a day, not even once. I was happy I could do this. I was relieved I could tell someone what I’m going through. What happened with my day and if how boring was it. What I sent to your inbox, nobody else knew. Just me and your inbox – still made me satisfied. Later I realized it hindered me from writing my journals, which made me panic. However, if I think about it, your inbox became my latest journal. It was therapeutic for me. I’m writing you this to tell you how thankful I am I have you. Whether it was unread or even seen does not matter, what matters to me is that it was sent. Today I realized that I was not at all, selfish and greedy when it comes to you. Don’t get me wrong, I am not totally the bad type, but I’m just human I had the tendencies to want more and not even share. But you know, because of you, I learned not to expect and not to grasp what is beyond my capacity slowly everyday. I wanted to tell you that I appreciate you, I appreciated that amidst me flooding you with my life, you did not block me. You don’t have to read them,just let my messages go through your inbox. That’s it! You’ll be saving another soul again. Thank you for being my journal for the past year and for the coming more years.

-me-